Love – Want It but Can’t Receive It
Shadow was a Vietnam vet who just came back from the war in the early 1970’s. In Vietnam his was a highly decorated Green Beret. When he got back to his hometown in Indiana, Shadow was moving in with his high school sweetheart.
After they got the last of her stuff moved into their apartment. She threw her arms around his neck and started crying. Shadow was frozen with fear like he had never felt before.
She proceed to cry. Then words came out of her trembling lips. She began to tell Shadow how she was so afraid loosing him. She would lay awake nights crying fearing that he was laying dead in some far off rice paddy.
When her fears subsided, Shadow said that he was going to get them some pizza and orange crush for dinner. Shadow walked out of the apartment, down the stairs. He got on his new Harley Davidson motorcycle and drove off.
It was two day later on the beach in just south of San Francisco, Shadow was staring at the sun setting over the Pacific ocean. A tear rolled down his left cheek. He felt so alone.
Over the years Shadow looked for help at the VA, church groups, and in himself. He wanted to be home, but could not ever really connect. He wanted love, but when it came, he would run away from it.
Shadow tried several times with building a relationship. They did not last long. He finally died at 50. His body was found on that same beach. You see it was that beach staring off over the wide blue Pacific ocean was the only way Shadow could feel comfortable.
